Can you say um....frustration? So the GI doctor said that the motility test was normal and that the nurses who did the test shouldn't have said anything other than your doctor will let you know the results. They both said it looked as though I had no movement in my esophagus. But I guess I did. He did say that one swallow out of the 10 was abnormal but that doesn't mean anything.
So tomorrow I go for a Barium Swallow. I guess it is a procedure that I have to drink this nasty chalk stuff and they take x-rays over and over in different positions. So if that test is normal then it is on to a Ph test on Monday. It measures how much and what kind of reflux I have in my stomach and esophagus.
I keep trying to tell myself I am not imagining this that something is wrong and I need to get it figured out. That it isn't just going to go away over night. I don't know. I just feel so down about all this. It's hard not knowing and staying in limbo.
Doc wants me to only eat very lightly which is fine because I am not "eating" at all. I have soup and shakes but that's about it. I can have some crackers at times too. If all these tests show nothing is wrong it's off to Boston. The doctor definetly believes me that something is wrong. He said he has had three patients this year with the same issues I am having. One of them ended up with motility disorder and the other is in Boston still not sure what is wrong.
I joined a support group when I first had the motility test done. From what I understand many folks have these same issues and never get an actual diagnosis. They just go on living with issues and sickness and the docs can't find anything. Although the docs know something is wrong they can't find a concrete problem which means there is no concrete solution.
Well on the positive note I have lost almost 20 lbs. For a fat lady like me that is awesome! LOL I am able to fit into sizes I haven't in years. Not that this is a good way to lose weight, but I am happy for the weight loss. I hope I can continue to lose weight healthily though.
So....even though I don't know what is wrong I know God is good!! I know that he is in control and he will do what he needs to do to make this all work out according to his will and so he is glorified!!
On another lighter note...I have done the barium swallow and it is kinda funny. They have you drink the nasty chalk stuff...which really isn't too bad tasting...and then lay down on the table and turn over...and then turn over again so it coats your stomach! You feel like a little kid rolling around and around on this table...while trying to stay robed! I know you will find some humor in it....I did! I also know you have been longing to lose weight and although I am sorry for the situation bringing it about, I am glad for you for this little silver lining. Just imbibe the healthiest things you can. Maybe a juicer is in order.....hmmmm......Love ya sista!
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